;; Know your limits, Remember where you came from,
but never give up.
Dear Friend,
If you're reading this...I have a few things to say. First off, I was really hurt and felt frustrated when you made no interest in hanging out this summer. It bothered me because I wanted to reconnect with you after being far away for so long. From this moment on, I forgive you. Above all, I miss you.
This past year sucked, with being raped, friends betraying me, my family falling apart, and falling away from my faith; I was lost and didn't know where to turn to. When I was at that point, I turned to you. You helped me see a lot of things, but one thing I could never get over was how jealous I was of you. Yeah, I'm jealous. As I write this post, I'm completely jealous and I'm writing it because I know if you want to you will read this. Why am I jealous? You've been succeeding in your life more than I am. You found new friends, developed a new foundation of rock in which you built your faith, started to love fitness, and you found someone who loves you very much. With all of this going on, I started feeling inconvienient, like part of me telling you about how much my life sucked was draping on your life. I started pushing myself away and I know I was being successful, I've always known how to push people away. When I sent you that text, I meant every word I said. When you didn't reply right away I was hurt, so when you did reply after a few days, I didn't answer back. I'm answering now. I'm answering now in complete forgiveness, for everything that has happened in the past year and summer. The truth is, you have been my friend for the longest time. In 7th and 8th grade you looked past all the bad things and found the true me, who wanted nothing more than a best friend because I was scared of everything else. Then in 8th grade when I betrayed you and stopped having anything to do with you, you forgave me in highschool & it was back to the 7th grade. You have been a great friend, and you are allowed to have mistakes because no one is perfect. As I write this, I'm asking for your forgiveness as well. I haven't been all the best that I could be either. I'm proud of you, you are going places in life. God has called you to one heck of a journey. It will be filled with struggles and obstacles but God never said it'd be easy. You will prevail in the end. I want you to know that whatever you decide to do, whether it's go full into veterinary medicine or take a year or two and go back to Africa. I know that you will be ready. I've always admired your perseverence and your utmost faith. You learned what I have not, and that is trust. Trust in the Lord and he will provide. Please continue on in everything you are doing. I wish you the best of luck.
If you're reading this,
I love you & I'll be praying for you dear.
Tiffany (:
